Happiness = overrated

and misunderstood.

I am not happy. But, I am definitely not unhappy.

What is the adjective one can use to describe the feeling of being 100%, totally, and utterly alive?

Cause that's what I am.

Dear future Jackie,

Never forget Jackie at this moment. She makes almost no money, she doesn't own anything, and she hides in the third floor of an apartment in a city of over a million people. Her life is insanely beautiful.

Don't forget that. Don't lose that. Wherever you are, whoever you are, remember that you are cool water that can flow and change shape into whatever container holds you, and you're still the same. Don't lose your soul. There's no price that's high enough to make it worth losing. Be proud of the essence you've been able to maintain through it all. Make that your primary goal, always. Keep loving. Keep living. Keep asking questions. Keep the glass half-empty to make room for everything wonderful that comes your way. Stay as honest as you can, but don't beat yourself up too much when you aren't. Forgive yourself, and then forgive other people, because we're all in the same boat, and its not sinking, its drifting, and if you try too rigidly to direct its course, you'll miss all the wonderful places that the wind wanted to take you all on its own. Come alive. Stay alive.

-J